pissed.
July 07, 2005 / 5:08 p.m.
I'm so fucking pissed off. So i sent my resume in to this office staffing company, and they liked my resume. They write me back and are like 'here, take this online office skills test'.
Well, number one, i'm fucking retarded with math, so i fuck up on even like fractional addition... and end up scoring in the 60% percentile on the 'basic office skills' test.
but that isn't the worst part.
the worst part is that i get through that, i get through the ten key test (which i suck at), i get through the wpm test... and then i have to take the Microsoft Office Word test. And i'm thinking 'okay, this'll be easy, i've used microsoft office word for countless papers, i could do it in my sleep!'
WRONG!
i start taking the test, and the fucking thing is one obscure function after another.
'Make the first line of this non-linear column merged using only your fucking right testicle and a booger'
man.
i'm not kidding either, they LITERALLY wanted me to do that with my right testicle against the keyboard.
well, maybe not.
i ended up just quitting, even though the thing specifically said 'even if you are having a hard time, your test score will be better if you just tough it out until the end.'
but fuck, i'm pissed off.
and for no reason really. i mean, no important reason. i'll go in there on monday, they'll look at my results and be courteous, and then laugh at me when i leave.
i was thinking about it, though, while waiting for the bus on belmont this afternoon.
basically, in essence, life comes down to a very very simple proposition.
either you decide to live your life getting pissed off by absolutely everything, or you live despite it all.
think about how many god damned things there are in this world, in the things you do and the people you meet, that provide you with the opportunity to get pissed off. and it's just so fuckking easy to do. to fall into. and you feel so good right away, because you think it's you against the world and you're so smart and the world is so cruel and stupid dumb.
but it isnj't like that. nobody gives a fucking shit about what's bothering you. nobody does. seriously. they might pretend like they do. they might tell you some story about something like that happened to them. or some other anecdote.
but in the end, nobody gives a fuck about the petty shit that you're going through. and as a result the only thing left to do is to just fucking get past it.
uggh.