i guess i'm not infatuated with you anymore
June 12, 2005 / 6:55 p.m.
oh, i get it.
your 'conscience' and 'integrity' don't allow you to date someone who you like, but who your somewhat-friend/ex-roommate spent the night with three or four times before she moved back to california.
but yet they allow you to break yourself up over, and continually go back again and again to, the asshole you fell in love with somehow, who's emotionally shut off and can't talk to you about anything serious or involving emotions and never has been able to (instead he changes the topic or leaves the room).
who thinks you're sub-human because you're a single mom, and who isn't afraid of hiding that fact from you when you talk about it, and thus continually rejects you when you are lonely and call him at 7 in the morning all lonely, saying you love him and want to be with him. he says that he "just can't do it", he's 'not comfortable' and that "it's not right". you still call him your 'friend' and know you're never gonna be able to call him anything more than that in the bottom of your heart.
yep, that makes a lot of sense to me.
oh, i know, things are more complicated than that.
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